to you :
i still don’t know how to feel about losing a friend like you. you were amazing. i try to make myself feel better by telling myself how lucky i am that at one point in my life, i was friends with someone as great as you. but most times, i just feel sad about you being gone. the sad part is seeing you handle it so easily like you didn’t experience any loss and that just brings my worth down. it sucks. i trusted you to be there and now you’re gone for no reason that i know of.
it’s all true though. you were amazing. you were the best. you taught me a lot. i guess these can really be reasons for me to be okay because they’re all true. it hurts a lot that i won’t get to have my share in your life anymore but i should try to be happy because i owe it to you. God probably sent you over to teach me how to be happy.
although i am selfishly angry or mad at you for leaving, i can forgive you because i can never be mad at you. when i get over this loss, i wanna be able to see you happy, even if it is without me.
i wish you all the best and i want you to be happy. i also want to be happy so ill try not to write about you that much.